Ok… SOOOOO… kind of a lot is going on right now..
Not just in MY world.. that kind of thinking is very egocentric.
The world in general feels very angsty.
However… these are MY ramblings so I shall air my grievances.
First of all, you should know that I am generally a positive, kind, generous, understanding, and forgiving person… for the most part.
To actually get me truly angry isn’t easy. My main triggers are; selfishness, cruelty, being disrespectful, unnecessary greed, and overall lack of compassion.
I tend to aggressively avoid people and situations that get me triggered.
Regardless… people happen.
I don’t feel comfortable explaining the back story here. It’s pretty personal.. not just to myself but to a family who is grieving.
Anyway… two people really upset me.
The first being someone who is in a compromised emotional state, therefore I felt guilty being angry with her.
This guilt quickly dissipated the more she contacted me.
I feel like I pretty much kept my cool…
Until…. I spoke to, what I thought would be, a calming person.
This newt person in my life just contributed to said anger rising!
I felt dejected.
Worst of all… I felt wrong… and wronged!! Like MY emotions had no value. As if one of the people I count on the most in life just abandoned me.
That, my friends, is an epicly awful feeling…
I wish I could explain specifics..
Maybe at a later time.
Anyway… this all happened yesterday.
I slept on it.
I feel less shitty.
My wonderful boyfriend helped me put things into perspective.
I tend to think with emotions rather than logic.
I’m fairly confident that things will pan out.