Unfortunately, My Mental Strength Dwindled Rather Than Strengthened
I was something of an unusual kid… I guess I’m an unusual adult as well.. but that’s not the point!
I was oddly smart, not like a savant or baby genius, just little things like teaching myself to read at two or drawing in perspective and showing distance with my Crayola’s. So, naturally, my mother thought I was amazing (well, I AM..) and tried to nurture that tiny sponge brain with the hopes I’d be a lawyer or something…
I turned into a dreamer, artist, writer and lover of light and energy…
I just got (still get) easily distracted by sunshine, flowers, clouds, bugs and rather doodle than multiply.
It didn’t help that A.D.D. (not A.D.H.D… I just have the basic one…) was not well known in the 80s. I probably could have benefited from Adderall a little bit.
So, basically, all my “standardised tests” were off the charts so they put me in “Little Kid Extra Smart Classes”, kinda like AP Everything for seven-year olds, it was sick.
I truly hated it! My “peers” were stuck up little competitive, judgemental, snots!
My family… was, um, not…
So, basically, I had a small problem – all my teacher’s reports sent home sounded like, “doesn’t pay attention”, “doesn’t participate”, ”needs to focus”, “incomplete work”, etc…
However, if one of those tests with the lil’ circles was put in front of me, I was on fire!
Then this one bitch teacher told me with quite stern frankness;
“This program isn’t for you. I think you would be better suited amongst peers more on your ‘level’.” (insert condescending old lady bitch voice)
…sooooo I had to switch schools in like, 5th grade! It sucked! Royally!!
Especially since I was this five foot ten, broke ass, nerd, newbie who didn’t know a soul and had a teacher who was more scared of my new “peers” than I was!
Imagine if I kept getting super smart? Like, I’m pretty damn smart, but if I was some Ivy League Bitch, I would practicality be mutant! Possibly even President right now!
(Eh! I think I may actually BE too smart for that shit!)
I rather use my powers for good.. on a smaller scale…
I’ma leave you with my song obsession right now…
That’s all for now!
Light & Love